“I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in Him will I trust.”
I sometimes find it so difficult to trust. I like to feel in control of my life. I try to direct my actions so I can feel safe and happy. I count my blessings and tell myself to trust in “God’s Plan”. Yet time and again I find myself facing circumstances that truly place a heavy burden on my heart. At times, we are all scared, sad, or full of grief and despair. God doesn’t promise that bad things won’t happen to any of us, even if we try to be faithful disciples in all our actions. We know that Jesus himself struggled to accept God’s will and suffered fear and doubt when He prayed in the garden. How can I trust that everything will turn out okay?
But while I may struggle to trust, I know God is my true refuge. When my soul is sick and I am frightened or sad, I can always go to God for sanctuary. He provides the place where I can lay down my burden and rest. With Him I find the comfort and strength I need. In Psalm 91, He tells us His wings will shelter us and we do not need to be afraid. He will be with us in trouble and He will deliver us. Trust and refuge: one word requires so much; one word promises so much.
Dear Lord, help me find the strength to trust and to let go of my need to worry and control. I know you are my strength and my refuge and are with me always. If I accept your refuge, I must also give my trust. Amen.